Today is my birthday, and in this very moment, I am living out a dream come true manifestation for me. I am currently in Santa Fe New Mexico, attending the Gateway Dream Retreat as a photographer and attendee simultaneously. Enjoying the magic of the experience, receiving deep & soulful guidance, all of it arriving through the wisdom of one of my favorite spiritual teachers, Denise Linn.
Why does this matter? Well let me tell you the backstory of how this all came about, not to brag and not to show off, simply to provide a very real example of how directing intention, focusing on the goal, and releasing the outcome to spirit can boomerang shit right back to you.
Let’s begin with my desire to purchase my dream car, a Range Rover Evoque (don’t ask what was so special about this car, it’s just something I wanted). I felt overwhelmed, anxious, afraid, and was experiencing a total lack mindset…therefore receiving the results of this lack mindset. Not having enough, money flying out the door left and right. I decided to stop the craziness and get back to my roots in what I know. What had always shifted my energy and created the desired outcome? I was fully aware the answer involved getting my mind and spirit on the same page. Little by little I started remembering my spiritual tools and actually using them.
I started journaling every day, writing out the story with the ending I wanted, not with the current reality I was faced with. Every time the fear popped in, I had an affirmation or a mantra ready to go. One of my favorite mantras was the Gayatri mantra, one that I would sing to myself while driving in the car (the car btw that I hated and wanted to get rid of). The next thing that I noticed, the car that I wanted passed by, then a funny thing started to occur, that same model car would be somewhere in my awareness on a daily basis. At first, it was only once in a while, then it became every single day that I would see that car, in different colors, and in various areas of town. It became a habit, every time I saw the car a smile would cross my face, a fluttering feeling would stir in my heart, and I knew it was getting close to being mine.
One day I had a friend in town, we were driving back to my house, and there was my dream car sitting at the end of my street, the same exact color that I wanted. A little bit of doubt crept in, from time to time, especially when I got caught in the money part of things. All of the cars that I had seen of this model were out of my price range. Two weeks went by and I decided to start looking for my car, this wasn’t the first time, my husband had looked and I had also looked many times in the past, yet now looking back I recognize that we were looking for this car already having in our minds that it was good to be too expensive.
One day I started looking online about a month from the time when I saw the car on my street. I found it, and the price was within my budget, yet the car was all the way in Las Vegas, four hours away. I showed my husband, he immediately got on the phone started doing all the negotiating work, and the very next morning we drove to Vegas. 30 miles outside of Vegas the car that we were going to trade-in started having issues. I can feel my heart sank, and by the look on my husband’s face, I knew he was right there with me, thinking what the hell were we going to do. The car we were driving had the check engine light come on, started losing power, and having a variety of other issues. I cross my fingers, did a lot of praying, and finally started visualizing us being there and everything going well. I also started visualizing the ride home even though we weren’t there yet, seeing it in my mind’s eye and knowing that I was going to be driving home my car. Long story short it worked, and I love my new car.
Funny side note- The vehicle that I wanted was in high demand because it was underpriced and it had low mileage for the year that it was.Therefore other people have been test-driving it, and one couple even came in to put a down payment on it, only for some odd reason in their credit card was declined (because it was meant to be mine), which caused an argument, so they gave up and walked away.
That’s me driving my new (to me) car!
Now back to the dreaming retreat…. there were similar circumstances when it came to the retreat. I wanted to go, yet the price tag freaked me out quite a bit. I set my intention, visualized myself being there, and then let it go. To be honest part of me let it go because I wasn’t sure I could actually manifest it. A few weeks went by, I got a phone call and the topic of the retreat came up again. I had a feeling I was meant to go, and once again my fear crept in.
This time I refused to give in to the fear. In fact, I said yes, I am definitely coming to the retreat, even though my head had no idea how I was going pay for it. I let it go and trusted in my spirit because I knew in my heart that if I had the desire to go to this retreat, my desire could manifest and be brought into form.
The next day, I decided to see what was in my little wooden box. This little wooden box is where I would keep cash that I received from teaching meditation classes and workshops. I was aware that there was a decent amount of money in there, I have been saving it for a while. What I didn’t know was exactly how much money was in there. I started counting, after just a moment… my eyes widened, and I felt that fluttering in my heart again. I thought to myself, “there is no way possible”.
Not only was there more money in that box when I expected, there was more than four times the amount of money that I thought was in the box. And guess what? It was almost enough money to cover the majority of the retreat. One of the coolest parts of this manifestation is that the box that I put the money in, has the four elements on it…… Water, Earth, Air, and Fire. The four elements are very important to me in my work, and they’re one of the reasons I was drawn to work more with Denise Linn, so of course, all of this experience would be connected to that simple little wooden box.
What I learned from this experience, was honestly nothing new. It was a remembering, a reminder of the infinite power and wisdom within me, to create my life, and also to know when to get out of my own way. I had to say yes to certain experiences even though I was not able to yet see the whole picture. It was also important to know when to detach from these experiences, in order to let them come back.
Happy manifesting sweet friends, sending all my love from Santa Fe~