If you have “stuff” to work out within your nervous system and subconscious mind in connection to the subject of money, it will not go away when you get more money.
Example: My “fear setpoint” used to peak around $250 if I had to spend at or above this amount of money. I had not yet worked through some of my subconscious beliefs or my financial ceiling of a few hundred dollars here or there.
Then, I noticed that amount felt fine when I had to spend it BUT it shifted to about $600 or more. The same feeling of panic, tension, anxiety in my body, and uncontrollable tears would fall as I resisted letting it out…fearing I would not have enough.
Then, more work, more clearing, more awareness, more healing, a new mindset and then…. I would feel this resistance and nervousness (it was no longer fear, now just discomfort) around spending on $4000 or more. (I’m currently teetering around $4,000-$7000 in working out discomfort AND doing it!).
The best part? I know this because I went from handling hundreds of dollars on a regular basis to thousands of dollars on a regular basis! So even though there is more work to do, my inner knowing, trust, beliefs, and experience have created circumstances for more in-flow to happen.
Here is the other interesting connection: more opportunities came in with lessons around speaking my truth, saying no, and holding my boundaries. The better I got at this, the more available energy I had (time, money, energy, etc.)
If you struggle to let money in or to hold onto it… go deeper. It is not about what you think it is about. It is not about intelligence, certifications or diplomas… it is not about college education, geographical location or who you know.
It is about who you THINK you are, and all you BELIEVE you are capable of.
I was an east coast wild child, party animal, black sheep, problem kid, misfit, substance abusing, lost soul for many years, living too close to NYC for my own good. Misunderstood, not trusted (rightfully so) and speeding through a very dangerous life. I should technically be dead, too many close calls to count; many I blacked out and cannot even remember.
Many of the people I hung out with during that time are now dead or still lost within addition and/or suicide. Some are still likely stealing to get money for drugs and guns… I have first hand witnessed this too many times as well.
I know who I am today, I own my past, I own my light, I own my potential, and I own the fact that I am enough <3
Now…. my outer world reminds me of how I feel in daily reflections. When I fall out of harmony or balance, it too will then reveal this to me.
Your bank account does not define you, and yet it can be a sacred container for you play and exchange with IF you are willing to know who you are, what you believe, and what you are capable of~